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Thursday, January 15, 2009
+ + "HOLY! HOLY! HOLY! is the BLESSED LIGHT!!!!!!!" + +
i looked and i saw the outline of a child sitting alone, in the sunshine of a perfect beautiful day, of gentle warm breeze swaying and radiant soothing sunshine, as i noticed the child was wisely looking apon all the souls of the entire world.
i could feel what the child was thinking and feeling.
the child knew something fully and completely which had no element of doubt whatsoever in the child's thinking and feeling while of the child's gentle mild sincere contemplation as i kept looking apon the child who is there, of such compelling desire to know everything about this child. Who is this child, and why do i sense this child knows and feels the answer to every truth i shall ever want to know?
there was an outline of light all around this child which was glowing pure and bright. I felt the pure light, and realized it is an eternal light that does not stop shining.
calm and peaceful, at ease of a pure feeling constantly flowing, i felt incredible inside, more so than i had seemingly ever felt before, while looking apon this beautiful child, and yet, i began to releaze that i had felt this way once before, a very long time ago when i was a small child.
The child was of pure and true feeling awareness, looking apon all the souls of the world today, and apon all the souls along life's road of the child's life journey, of calm reflection of every word every soul had ever said to the child, as the child acknowledged and discerned the pure truth of anything anyone had ever said, of all things truth and falsenesses which were not true of the child, words which were not able to ever bind to the child like they wanted the child to feel like they did. The child was wise to all of the souls, past and present, knowing none of the souls could detain, trouble or bring harm to the child, because none of the things any soul ever said or would say in error are true, and the child constantly knew this.
The child was 100% pure and true, wise of all things true and false, easily able to discern from wise and unwise approach of any soul at all times, where fearlessness was of the child as regards any soul. The child knew all these errors of all souls was of souls unknowingly unwise, aimless in their haphazard approaching way of the child, which did not anger the child, rather the child was sad that none had come to truly know the child, or sincerely desire to know the child, unaware of the divine truthful presence of the child among them, lacking in sincere desire to know the child, to feel what the child knew they could feel, if only they knew the truth the child knew about them.
There was no uncertainty about the child's contemplations and feelings, none whatsoever, of no wondering if something was true or not, rather of 100% pure wise knowing awareness of everything the child thought about, where all the thoughts of the child were also of the child's feelings at all times.
There was no bitterness or anger about the child's introspective reflections either, rather always of compassionate wise knowing awareness of what the child knew was true, of what became of the child's precious loving brothers and sisters along life's road, of all who sadly became unaware, unwisely disconnected from their constant awareness feelings like that of the child, where the child was of pure knowingness, that which is true of the child, once was true of them too, and still is, where mere nurturing, attendance and wisdom protection know how, is all any were lacking to reconnect to their sense of pure and true, of what is easy for the child to assist in correcting, given the opportunity to assist any and all who would sincerely spend time enough in coming to know and love all there is to know of the wise pure loving child, who knows the truth of everything about the soul of another, by means of awareness of what is exact sameness truth of the soul of all souls, of what is of every reflection and feeling of the child constantly contemplating truth, truth of everyone.
i came closer, wanting to know all i could about this wise child sitting there at peace and at ease, quietly thinking and feeling what ever the child chose to think about.
Only love flowed forth from this child sitting there, pure and true love at all times for all the souls of the world, a child among them whom none had take the time to truly know and love, like the child knew them and loved all of them.
Then the child gracefully turned to me and looked into my eyes, knowing why i was there, happy and relieved that i had finally humbly surrended to the child, of genuine sincere desire to truly know and love the child, the same way the child loved and knew me. The child knew my sincerity, my genuine pure loving feelings which are the same as the child, and the child knew that i would not ever leave or abandon the child, unable to, just like the child is not ever unable to BE anything other than what the child constantly is at all times, pure and true.
No one knew the child was there, nor did anyone know what the child was constantly thinking, nor did they ask, but i knew. Not only did i know, i could constantly feel everything the child was feeling of every thought the child was thinking, at ease in doing so, of the same at ease peaceful state of this wise child who is constantly of pure love and pure thoughts.
The child was fully awake in awareness feeling of what the child constantly knew was of the only importance in life, the constant State of BEing so loving, so peaceful in feeling of what is constantly of the child, and the necessary wisdom which protects the State of BEing of the child from the world of unwise souls all around, something easy for the child to constantly BE vigilant of, without effort, as wisdom is what the child constantly is of, constantly aware and alert.
The only way to truly describe the child, is that the child is 'flawless', inspite of the many unwise souls who came near to the child along life's road, spuing forth many unwise empty unloving untruths apon the child, where the child remained unscathed by every unwise soul along life's road.
The child did appear to feel afraid and discouraged to come back to the world, and yet not of any fear while sitting there with me, as i listen to what the child was thinking, clearly happy that i was taking the time to listen and feel what it is the child had been so hopeful that someday i would.
Who is this exceedingly wise child who knows and loves me so well, completely open and trusting, constantly knowing all of my thoughts, knowing i too am constantly knowing of the thoughts of this amazing wise child as well? And why did i feel everything is going to be more than ok, of pure truth which feels like is what i have been searching for my entire life, having now found it? It is a feeling of always staying right here in this moment, not ever able to leave, of no desire to ever BE of any other feeling, than the constant love feeling devoid of doubt. That only exceeding love and joy will be of every day of my entire future? How is that possible? Why is this happening today, and not before now? Is it the protective wisdom of this child, that i am yet learning, so that i too may become as wise and constantly pure loving as this child obviously is, where my feelings reveal with clarity the truth of this? This feeling so calm and at ease, feels so pure and true of me, exact sameness of the child's feelings, of love constantly flowing none stop, radiant in feeling, so beautiful to feel this way. Why has it taken me so long to become fearless like the way i now feel this day? Why do i feel this feeling won't ever change or leave me? Is this child 'me'?
Then the child began to speak.
"i am sad that other's do not truly know and love 'me' like you do."
"i am sad that other's do not truly desire to know and love 'me' like i do them."
"i am sad that i cannot dwell for too long with many of them, because of my desire to constantly feel only love at all times, which is difficult at times with many of them i have met along life's road, of so many souls of impure thought so toxic for 'me'."
"It is constantly of my desire to always BE of the constant at ease beautiful feeling of exceeding grace feeling, of what is my true nature, the peaceful pure love feelings of only pure thoughts of how constantly i am when i am alone, away from them, free of all their bitter foul tasting unwisenesses they cast about like they do, so unnerving and not pleasant they can be at times, which i do not enjoy, of why i walk away and leave like i always do, whenever i am inundated too much by their unwise negativity."
"i am free, untethered from the world's unwiseness within, yet i am not ever free from this world of unwiseness which surrounds 'me'"
"So many masks that they like to wear. So many hurtful masks of unwiseness that hurts others and another!"
"Do they not know who i am, like i know them?"
"Why do they not know 'me'? Deep within, am i not the likeness of them?"
"I cannot BE anything other than the truth of what i know i constantly am, although sometimes i too hide behind masks like they do. At least when i do, i know when i do, not like them, where seemingly many are constantly of the masks they love to wear."
"Who am i? Am i you? I feel like i am you. Do you feel like you are 'me' too? Are we the same? I feel the same things you do, and I know you feel the same as i do too. Are you going to stay with me like i want you to. Do you love 'me' too. I feel that you do. Come on, let's find out if others feel the way we do. We know they do, the same way we know and love each other, true??
"Why would anyone want to feel any other way than pure and true?"
~ awareness of the presence of our pure true loving divine child self within, that is constantly there listening and feeling
"There is nothing greater in life than the pure and true wise loving you who is of exact sameness wise loving feelings and fearless calmness as 'me', are you not? Are we not fully awake unfraid of the fearful souls in the world who do not fully know and love us like we do them? And can they ever harm the way we constantly feel? And can they make us think the way they want us to think? Are we not indeed free spirits who think and feel what we want to think and feel, untethered to the unwise world which does not know us, nor desires to truly know us like we do them? How can they who do not comprehend us ever bring harm to free spirits which they do not comprehend and know? How can they strike against that which they cannot see, of our comprehension they do not reach for or desire? Are they not snared by the same unwisenesses as before, and before that, yet unchanging, unaware of the unwisenesses we speak of? Truly, in all their bitter empty mockery of us, they make only a mockery of themselves, do they not? So why do you let them trouble you with all their empty unloving unwisenesses which lead to nowhere, so bitter and foul tasting are they not, leading away from you or 'me' when they do, unaware that they cannot seperate us, for how can they seperate you from 'me' when they do not truly know and love the 'me' or you who is there?"
"So who and where are we, and where can we easily always BE found? Am i not you? Are you not the exact sameness in pure loving thoughts and feelings as 'me', like we always have been for so long, like we constantly always are, always WILL BE?"
"blessed blessed blessed pure and true we constantly are!"
"we are not any of the unwise things others unwisely seek to project onto us, and never were!"
"we are constantly flawless, of our constant pure true love, of our constant pure true light of wise knowing awareness that we are not and never were any of the immature bitter toxic unwisenesses the world casts about like it does, unaware of our constant pure true presence walking among them, of so many who are not of pure true genuine sincere graceful approach with us, so aimless, so haphazard, of so many emptiness of fearful words they utter like they do, of bitter delight in tossing other souls to and fro like they do daily, of their obvious disconnection from the pure and true source we constantly are of at all times, wise children of the source of wise light that does not stop shining for us within, of our pure and true constant awareness that we never were any of these unwisenesses when we first entered into this unwise world, nor shall we ever BE of any of these unwisenesses that are cast about in the world of the many aimless souls yet unwise, and yet unaware of our presence among them, unaware of the source of flawless perfect light of wisdom we constantly are of at all times, of the many souls who have disconnected from the source of our pure and true loving flawless State of BEing we constantly are, of the source we all came from and is yet there within their souls for all to connect with, if only they would like we do."
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/US_Airways_Flight_1549
~ more later ~